ESSAY:

The biggest thing in my life is I thought I would have to go on whatever what I was gonna do with my life? What was I gonna go to college?  Why is it I want to do so much in my life? Then it clicked after hearing the worst call I could get from anyone. It hurt me inside it had effect me to decide what I was gonna do. At 10:35 P.M. on November 5th I found out my sister, who was only 21, passed [away]. I don't know what I could ever think or do. She struggled in her life though school and general just life cause it didn't add up. I have gotten so much better in my life after my junior year started it was a fresh. I got close to my sister, Nakita, who passed and it was really all fine. But trying to keep up with my sister struggling with her seizures and me staying in school I wanted to find a way to stay with her to be with me at all times so she would be okay. I went back to school because there was no one to help me out. I never knew if it hurt her or not cause she was too nice of a person to say so. But my sister dreamed and she planned her life out like a book because she wanted to be successful in any way. So I'm struggling with the decisions I made with my sister and if I could make it better. If I could, I would in a heartbeat. So many memories and so many people left behind. But these decisions give me more hope now because I hope to one day see her and tell her, "because of you I became stronger and became wise and yes I did fulfill your dreams and your bucket list as well as always thinking about you and making sure the family stays together." She has a voice an angel and wanted to be heard only for the glory of God and never the fame. So I hope to fill that part of the heart for her because she would [have] wanted that.